Saddness spreads like Ivey

Hey everyone,
well I am not going to tell anyone about this blog because of what i am going to say they will think I am just a complaining brat.
I feel so alone always I mean I get e-mails from people and I get invited by people to do stuff but I feels like I am not really wanted that they only invited me because they had to.
For example My cousin came to visit she stayed at a friends house from Church that was no problem but they so much together and I sat at home then when they did invite me I felt that they were all chummy and I was just there to take up space.
When my other cousin moved out I got very depressed and stoped eating almost completely she moved in with my best friend they started doing all kinds of things with out me and then they would tell me about it i was left alone. But I do know that God will always be there no matter I my friends treat me I think at times i should act different then they would like me better but I have tried and it is not easy to change who you are.

Today I am at home and my friend is having a different girl over for a small time because the mothers are getting together so they have to. My best friend is at a wedding and my other friend s live so far a way that I can't see them very often. Now I know some people will say see that's what happens when you are home schooled and don't socialize as much but I think that it would be worst in school because I would be teased for the way I dress and act.