Poems

My Symphony
To live content with small means.
To seek elegance rather than luxury, and refinement rather than fashion.
To be worthy, not respectable, and wealthy, not rich.
To study hard, think quietly, talk gently, act frankly.
To listen to stars and birds, to listen and sages, with open heart.
To bear all cheerfully, do all bravely, await occasions, hurry never.
In a word, to let the spiritual, unbidden and unconscious, grow up through the common.
This is to be my symphony. ~ William Ellery Channing




The Nature Of Love

Love is the river of life in this world.
Think not that ye know it stand at the little tinkling rill-the first small fountain.
Not until you have gone through the rocky gorge, and not lost the stream;
not until you have gone through the meadow,
and the stream has widened and deepened until fleets could ride on its bosom;
not until beyond the meadow you have come to the unfathomable ocean,
and poured your treasures into its depth not until then can you know
what love is. ~ Henry Ward Beecher

Everything has beauty but not everyone sees it. ~ Confucius

Short but Not So Sweet

Hey I am not going to post much but I am going to update y'all,


Mary Ellen and I baby sat all day Monday yeah! that was great. when I got home it hit me I was so tired and then I knew I was sick yep I was running a fever and my head and throat hurt I went to bed early the next morning which is today I still had the throat and the head but my fever was gone my nose decided to act up. We waited to see how I did we went to the dentist were I sat in the horrid chair for over an hour yeah that was wonderful but i got home and ate dinner then my fever return yep so I laid around all day until Kevin came home we played three games of sequence. feeding chores came next that was when mom was called away so who knows when she will return but i sure hope that woman has her baby this time. Of course I milked cows took a shower practised violin and here I am.

sanny Romans 8:28, Gal 2:20

Chicken or a Dog with it's Tail Between it's Legs

Howdy,

I just posted but you know showers make you think. Why am I so frightened of telling other about God I have so many times wanted to but I am afraid I have no clue why. I think maybe I am afraid of someone laughing at me or knowing more then me also I am not really a talker when it comes to strangers. But those are all foolish reasons!! I am just going to keep praying and reading the Bible maybe one day soon I will be able to wittness.




I think I should update you on my silly problem of the Jae and Mary Ellen thingy. I have to laugh at myself thinking Mary was Making Jen her new best friend those two are so funny togather you two fight like cats and dogs and I see that I have no worry when it comes to my friendship with Mary. Not that you are mean to each other but it is not like you never fight either. I think there has only been one time we really faught with each other and I will not bore you all with that story. Love you all and thanks for being my friends sanny

Find were the Pieces Go

Yo Yo Gal's and whom ever may be reading this,

Well I woke up at around 8 and Norah and I started talking although neither she nor I had our eyes open. Janelle came in and of course she wanted us to wake up, next Channing and Patrick came in Mary Ellen was still sleeping. the other three gals were in another room so I have no idea what was going. so after a while I got up and I read one book to Janelle then I found Mary Ellen in the room with Emily, Marty and Jea we talk for awhile. I went down stairs and helped Channing with his puzzle it was fun he wants me to name one of my kids, when I have one, after him I said Oh yah I will name it Yanning Anne, he loved it. Emily did all of our make up they say I have really great eyes for it. Thanks Emm sorry you had to do all of our make up. Next Channing started another puzzle and wanted me to help so I did for a short time. I had to go home so my lasagna would get done but all the girls wanted to go with me Melissa said that the house was so messy so all of us girls made quick work of cleaning the upstairs. we tried to get the van to start but someone had left it slightly on. so she was going to drive some of us in Daniel's car she lost the keys in the snow so I helped her find them. Mary, Norwell and I came here,To my house, I made the lasagna Norwell help thaw the hamburger. They listened to music then I went out and fed cow's and set up units they came out and I had Norah sign the board most of you have signed it. We all came in and Mary Ellen called home they left. Now Norah you may not like my bad spelling and I may have forgotten commas but I have but a few words for you DEAL WITH IT!!!!!!!!!! My sis called and said she was going to be late for supper so dad and I ate and went out to do the milking. my sis Say's my Lasagna was really good and I have to admit it was the best I had done. Not to be mean or anything my mom is not the best house keeper and so when she is gone it looks so good because I cleaned it. Man I feel like I am bragging!



love y'all Sandal

Sunshine and Summertime

Howdy,

Well I know it is not summer but this morning I was outside and it felt so warm, it makes me feel thankful for everything and yes I mean everything for if I did not have chores I would have more then likely stayed in my cozy little house but the chores made me go outside and feel the warm sun. It made me go insane I jumped in the snow in a skirt and made a snow angel.

We went to a tour today a TV station we missed the whole first half yah!!!! The print shop was interesting for the first hour when I could look at the really hot dude sittin' thar!!!

We went to a store, I bought a CD Tim McGraw yipee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, next we went home where I fed the cowies and to Mary Ellen's house I went pizza for everyone yum. post you all later

sandal

Learning the Basic's

Well here I am again posting I have been for the last couple days taking care of the house mom is gone to help a woman out so I decided to clean the house while she was gone and man I like it I think we have only made it cleaner when company was coming. I did not finish with the cleaning because we moved calves and they really were stubborn they would not moved because they were scared of there own Shadow. You know I think we are afraid to move ahead in our own lives for the same reason we are scared of our own shadow. I went in the house and started supper I tried so long to call the Row's so I could get the recipe before it was to late so I finally called Emily's cell phone they must of heard it or something because they called me I got the recipe THANKS JAE!!!!!!! it turn out great I invited Grandma up to eat with us because I made so much. Of course I milked cow's. I love you all it makes me feel importune when you comment lol! Later dudes

Long Trails Lead Us Home

Hey,
I have not posted for a few days so this will be a quick update. Sunday dad and I went to Church mom went to babysit for a woman who is going to have a baby. After Church was pot luck then a business meeting I washed dishes Jae rinsed them. After that I went to were Mary Ellen was looking at a catalog we chose which furniture we wanted Tim came over then we drew on two people in the catalog but Charissa did not mind since she had left already besides no one told us not to. We then dance the reel or tried to anyways I danced with Channing and Isaac I just wish I could dance with the guy I like but I figure that when one day when I marry I will get enough dancing to last a life time. I went home and milked cow's the my cousin called I talked to her for an hour.

Monday I got up and finished my writing assignment then out to the barn I went bedding cow's feeding hay petting cats. When I was putting the cow's in the heifer got out and it took me forever to get it in. I ran to the house made dinner (mom was gone babysitting again) changed clothes and dad took me to writing class after that Jen and I played violin at 4:50 dad came and got me I again ran to the house to get supper ready. Next milking,shower, and violin then at 9:00 I went to the Row's we watched a movie then Mary Ellen and I talked it was a good thing to just be us two again. Thanks Mary I love you as a friend!!! Thanks everyone for commenting in my blog I love you all. Today Emily and I baby sat for the same people mom has been baby sitting for those kids could give anyone a head ache but I actually enjoyed the change in my day at three I came home and you what i did next my normal routine.

later yall Sandal

Checking Out

Hey,
I spent the night at my sisters house last night she came and got me right before dinner so she ate with my family then up to her house we went she then went to work because she had gotten called in. so I watched James play his video game all afternoon she came home and I opened the beans for supper she did everything else my aunt Pam arrived then my bro Robert arrived we ate supper man was the food good! My aunt and I went to the store right down the road for chocolate covered raisins. When we were checking out I noticed the check out boy was hot and he was checking me out I have never ever had any guy check ME out I guess since I lost weight I look better but I never thought a guy would check me out. when we went back to Stacy's house Pam Stacy and I played games till about eight then everyone else left so Stacy James and I watched the movie Clue I love it is so funny!! well then today we went to the mall and walked around looking at clothes and jewelry the we grad a couple of tacos and went to her house were we punched out these little paper things that I put on cards (different ones from what I all ways use). Stacy brought me home and I did chores and I milked cows took a shower and here I am. Thanks everyone who reads this I know it can get boring after a while.

sanny or Sang De La

Life on the Big Screen

hey
Have you ever thought what it would be like if your life was a TV show how people would enjoy it when you have your worst moments like me getting mean to my bestest friend or me yelling at mom when I am mad at her. They would cry when you finally fell in love and they would be excited when you found out you would have a kid(I am not saying that I am married or have kids). Now would my audience be bored to death or mad at the star because she did something stupid or would they say man that was a great show and the star is great? I guess if we think about it we are kind of on a show god is always watching us and that makes me think that we should be on our best behavior all the time. I know it is impossible but I am going to try and think about being on my best behavior when ever I am temped to do something bad or get mad a my friends.

Today I had violin lessons and we shopped I got a shirt but that's all. Last night I went to the Row's and watched a movie I think I acted as normal as I have since I got depressed. so long sanny

Crazed

hey sorry for the last post I hate emotions at times I can't always handle them and they just pop lose. Sometimes I wish I was a guy I would rather be a guy and think bad thoughts about a girl then to be a girl and let emotions control me. That is one reason woman should not be president because they let emotions control what they do. Some of what I said I really do believe of course there is the stuff that was my loneliness.

sorry sanny

A Little Corner Of My Own

Hey well on Monday I finished up the cards and I did school not much Tuesday I did school and cleaned my room. today all i did was school and I wrote a song and put music to it is not the best and I won't tell you anymore about it because it won't do it justice. I have to go do chores soon so I will explain the title with the following: All I ever wanted was a corner to call my home and one day a husband to call me his own. I just read Mary Ellen's blog and it is true that i am the one that left those small messages she may want to know the real reason i will not give her this blog address it is because I know she will leave comments that make her look so Superior to me she will say that they never left me out and that no one could replace me as her friend but it's to late I have been replace since Jen has went over there I never get calls from her unless they are to ask me something, I am never asked over to play music because i know I am not as good as Jae but I would at least like to be over there. I know I can't sing as well as Jen and Mary Ellen but is that the reason I never even got asked to sing on their CD or even a picture in the booklet Christine is in it and even my cat. She will also say oh you just don't think we do stuff to gather because our parents let us do so much this summer. That is not true last winter at this time we still had sleep over all the time and we still talked on the phone. I know we are growing up and sleep over will come less and less often. Every Sunday I have to watch as you share clothes together and hear about all the things you did together. All I ever wanted was a friend that as soon as some one else came along they did not forget about me. That is why I am so close to Norah because she did not find someone new to talk to instead of calling me or e-mailing me. she also was never put on the CD in voice or picture Mary Ellen you may not have tried and I am sure I did, do and will do the same thing of leaving some one out. I'm scared that one day i will wake up and see that Mary Ellen and Jae are best friends and I will have to move on and find another best friend I'll have to restart making memories with the new one I will have to restart telling all me secrets and that I have wasted all those years of friendship with some one that is so easily influenced by another meaning that since Jen has moved to your house you have changed the way you act the way you dress and the way you talk. Now i am not say this is all bad but i feel it is harder to stay friends because you changed.
I will now give my blog address to Mary Ellen. sanny

Party Animal

Howdy hoe,
sorry to all those who read my blog Oh! yah that's right I have only told one person so far; ). I have been busy On Saturday I peeled potatoes and did my normal chores. After that I made a whole bunch of cards for February birthday's my family does the sunshine ministry were we send cards to people for their birthdays and anniversary's its for our Church. At 2:00 mom and I went to the Row's to help out by 3:00 people had started to arrive a lot of people all the girl's that were there played taboo it was fun my team lost. next we got the boys to play apples to apples with all he girls it made a huge group 15 in all. food came next and the rest of the time was hangin out and talking although i think there was a game of poker going on somewhere in the house, we left at 10:15.

Sunday I woke up at 5:05 A.M. I was so not ready to milk cows but I did then I did the normal chores took a shower and ate breakfast. mom had left because my great uncle had a dizzy spell and she went to the hospital with him so dad and I went up to Sunday school in the truck. For Sunday school it was a quiz review on all the other lessons we have had in the previous months girls against guys, girls won. Church was in Matthew 21:23-45 I nearly fell asleep because of having to get up early we also reviewed a bunch of stuff i think that I could remember what it was about if i thought about it harder. I feel so bed because I can't always remember. after Church we took Mary Ellen and Isaac with us and we ate a Culver's Rob joined us we were just about to order when Mrs. O'Neill and Norah walked in we all in joyed ourselves. then Mary Ellen Isaac and I road with them to Norah's house were we listened to music till others started to arrive Mrs. Kubezts and mom (dad went home in the truck) we all talked a long time then the Gramhams came and us teens went up stairs to talk poor Mark he was bored out of his skull. we all talked took pics and listened to music soon we all had to leave because of the snow. Mom and I dropped the Row's of and went home!! I will tell you what happened on Monday and today later maybe.
sandal the party animal

Life is Dirty on the Farm

Hay,
Well I cleaned the chicken coop today man did it ever need doing. I put straw down then wood chips put feed in the feeder. After that I fed hay to the cow's it was a little moldy so I got a little bit of allergies next I bedded cow's while listening to my western. I love westerns!!!! Dinner next yippee! we played two Games Dad, Mom, Kevin and I played Clue I totally lost then we played game of the states I won. After that I talk to Mary Ellen on the phone she had me read my diary to her so she could write what we did those days. Chores at Four thirty and supper at five five thirty milking and at seven a wonderfully warm shower next we watched a new show and now here I am writing in my blog. wow I have and exciting life but I am going to enjoy it while I can.

Sandal

Pretty Is As Pretty Does

Hey, well today I woke up and felt so lonely but that's just my moodiness. I went to violin lessons today I didn't do to bad and I felt better after it. Grandma, ma and I went to my uncle's house were my cousin and his wife and five kids are staying. Man they are wild or what they actually tipped me over in a chair and my little 2nd cousin was sitting on my lap when it happened she go scared and started to cried. Well I calmed her down she is so cute and nice. Once we got home I went out to do chores that is were I set up the milking units and then I fill the teat dips after that I sweep up the hay to the cow's and last I feed the cow's their grain. after supper I cleaned up the table and then milked the cow's and then dad and I watched a movie. mom is gone to baby sit so who knows when she will get back. Well I feel good so I actually feel pretty right now but who knows what tomorrow will bring.

later dudes!!

Wanting southern breezes but getting nothern freezes

Hey,
well I went to writing class after I did the bedding chores. At writing class we had to do this random thought thing all of us had to write the clean things that came to your mind we did this for twenty minutes of course I was going a mile a minute. we were not allowed to stop until it was done and we were not to do any worrying about the right way to do anything.
when that was done I went home and found that my choir DVD had come so we watched it then on to feeding the cow's.

It is cold out the wind is what is cold actually. blog you later Sandal

I feel good na na na na so good

I feel great I just took a shower after milking cows and playing with Pete(Repete died along time a ago) and fluff-man. I practised violin and did school watched a movie and did chores. Thanks Norah for everything you do know we are not Amish right? so lets go to wal-mart and have a party. Mom and I went to the library before my dental appointment (which went well ) I got a western for me and dad to listen to while milking cow's. I love westerns!!!!

talk to ya later sanny

what's wrong with me!!

Wow I have been really stuid the past few day's I don't care right now if Mary Ellen has found a new friend I feel I can rule the world. I feel like I will marry a very handsume man and have kid's and stay home and take care of my love and those little children. I feel good about the way I look I am no longer way over weight and man I feel good.

Besides I feel loved by my parents and friend's and most importenly God loves me. It sounds stuid but I went to the dentise and that is were I deceide it was silly to worry about such things. I have to go do school now so I will leave another post later tonight maybe.

sanny the great looking girl

Love is not for sixteen.

Hay,Hey,
well today I woke up really late like at 10:00 I called Jae because she need the rules for our writing assignment.
Chores came next bedding , hay feeding and cows putting in,dinner with the family. I do love it that the sun was out today. well I helped dad put a heifer in today she was mean then I played a game with Kevin and mom, I came in second.

I invited Jae and Mary Ellen help test cow's that went great just some times I would be wash a cow and I would watch as Jae and Mary Ellen talked and laughed together what a pair why should I split it up they like each other so much and i am so bossy I am so loud also. I have wished so many times that I was not such a over powering person you know how much easier it would be to find guy that liked me if I was not so loud and annoying If I was only more like Christine and be able to make any guy like me. I have a secret fear that I will never find the right man that I will end up like my aunt old and alone. I some times wish I was blond and skinny for I have seen so many guys who like them more then a brown hair, fat, witch like me.
after I think about this a while I remember that God loves me no matter what and that if I am suppose to marry he will send the right one to me.

Well after we milked we played a game of taboo it was really fun. after that I again saw how the two girls laughed on there way up the stairs they were laughing so hard and I stood at the top thinking how when Jen was not here it was me and Mary I can't help but resent her some times. I think that I am being very dumb right now feeling sorry for myself.

Life's no breeze but like leaves we all land some where in the end.

The comforts of home

Hey,
We just got home from Church we are going through Matthew what the parables mean and why Jesus Christ used parables so when He was dieing on the cross He could say "Father forgive them for they know not what they do." Today we learned about the fig trees.

We went to the store to pick up feed for the chickens and cat food for the ton of cats we have.
I titled this the comforts of home= Snow falling outside {check we have that} warm wolly blankets {check that one also} Music you like best{I could have that one but no energy to do so}Family close by{yep i got that one} Friends laughing and playing games with you {well I am sure I could have that one if i worked on it} a warm fire to sit by{I have a heat vent it's not the same but hay it works} and a clock to tick the minutes away{Oh yah I have that one }.

I am going to milk cows tonight then my cuz is suppose to call from North Carolina we will more then likely talk for an hour so my night is planned.

sandal the flip flop

Life and Bugs eye's are the hard things in life

Howdy,
well today was fine. I did my bedding chores and I came in at noon I thought maybe I would call and ask Jae to come and go on a walk. I checked my e-mail Norah told me that she and Jae were going to be with Christine all together. I felt a sinking feeling then but I decided to give it a try I called and she said yes. After I ate dinner she came we walked and talk and had a good time it reminded me of the good old days when she was living here. we play violin and listened to music then I make a smoothie and I played taboo for fun. then the girls came to pick her up that is when they invited me over with them but I had to refuse for I helped dad tonight and I have to get up at 5:05 tomorrow. I so wish I could go they are over there right now laughing away. the Row girls are in Virgina partying the night through and here I am complaining to a computer. I need to get a life.
sanny

On the upper side

Hey well thinks are a little better I feel that a call from Norah helped today for she is alone just like me and she even did not get to go to somethings I did.
The other day five of us girls climbed a hill behind our book store we named it Borders hill it was huge and we could see a huge part of the city and I think that if I could go there right now I would roll down it like a crazy kid. gotta go sandal the flip flop

Saddness spreads like Ivey

Hey everyone,
well I am not going to tell anyone about this blog because of what i am going to say they will think I am just a complaining brat.
I feel so alone always I mean I get e-mails from people and I get invited by people to do stuff but I feels like I am not really wanted that they only invited me because they had to.
For example My cousin came to visit she stayed at a friends house from Church that was no problem but they so much together and I sat at home then when they did invite me I felt that they were all chummy and I was just there to take up space.
When my other cousin moved out I got very depressed and stoped eating almost completely she moved in with my best friend they started doing all kinds of things with out me and then they would tell me about it i was left alone. But I do know that God will always be there no matter I my friends treat me I think at times i should act different then they would like me better but I have tried and it is not easy to change who you are.

Today I am at home and my friend is having a different girl over for a small time because the mothers are getting together so they have to. My best friend is at a wedding and my other friend s live so far a way that I can't see them very often. Now I know some people will say see that's what happens when you are home schooled and don't socialize as much but I think that it would be worst in school because I would be teased for the way I dress and act.